It amazes me how a religious man can justify lying. I’ve heard it all….lying to save oneself is permitted, if you don’t tell the full truth it’s not lying, a vague statement is not a lie. SM is the epitome of a lying scholar. He lies to save his skin. He lies to keep the peace. He lies to prevent from getting fired from his job. He lies to keep up pretenses and he lies to avoid repercussions from a woman’s scorn. What makes SM different than Congressman Weiner or Gov Schwazzerneger? I’m hard pressed to come up with an answer.
Married men in a position of power who look for women and xxx beyond their marriage are an enigma. It’s almost as if, by having all of their basic needs met, they embark on testing the limits of what they can get away with. It is like a challenge they take on because stability is too boring. I used to think that lying by omission is forgivable until I was lied to in this way. Suddenly, lying by omission falls under my list of despicable acts.
I am angry with SM. Angry that he looked for another woman after he had me. Angry that he was dumb enough to jeopardize his own career with his quest for yet another conquest. Angry that he put his cock before his head. I have not heard a single utterance of apology for what that has happenned. This is not surprising though because apologizing would be an admission of guilt. And to people like SM, he has not guilt. ”What we can do” is his defense for anything that goes wrong based on his own foolish maneuvers.
SM is living in fear. Fear that his horrible secrets will come out. I suspect that he has, in his mind, let me go but is too afraid to tell me for fear of repercussion. He knows I have a lot of dirt on him – a lot of proof of our union – I have the evidence they need to bring him down. So, he plays this – let’s take a rest game – thinking that I am that gullible. Allah will be my defender. If my suspicions are wrong then ALlah forgive me. But my gut has been very accurate of late. Allah has showed me things, on my own, I would not have been able to figure out.
SM – you need to be honest. If you love someone, say so. If you don’t then, be man enough to set the record straight.
You have hurt me beyond belief. You have lied to me more than what I could have ever imagined. You have abused my love in ways that is only rivalled by what Shakur had done. You and Shakur are birds of a feather. You don’t know what you have until you lose it. Well, if your job, family, stature is more important than me, then I wish you well with them. The next time you yearn for a BJ, don’t come crying to me.
Allahummansurni ‘ala man baghaa alayya….Sheikh or no sheikh, justice will prevail.
